Will To Create

Creating Courier this time round.. the feeling continues to escalate. It's the comforting and empowering feeling that you are on the right track. It is easy to loose faith in what you are doing; when none of it makes sense to anyone else. I seem to have a few treasure fans, who really remind me of the value of what I do. I don't think I could go one without this connection. I want to share this wonder. I want to share what's been shared with me, inside of me. I'm making the most of what I do. I'd like to think that. It's hard to get the balance right. Should I be harder and push myself again pulling all nighters? But I can't abuse creativity. I can't let myself get sick. I'm going with the flow. I'm creating better things. It feels that way. I trust feeling more and more. I still work a few days a week in a cafe to get by. It's my aim this year to generate more income from my comics. It's a lot of work when you are self published, and...

Last night I had a dream.. Geraldine was walking through the wilderness; she turned around and smiled at me. She seemed happy. I feel so frustrated. How much I want to deliver this new comic-no how much I NEED to. Despite certain obstacles, the force of creativity is forcing me and crushing walls that have blocked me. I can't really explain it any clearer than this. It's like I've prayed and the universe has blessed me with the help of friends and opportunities to over come the hardships I am currently going through. My artist just won't and can't lay there dormant, even through the stages of uncertainty in my life. I am blessed by my connection and awareness of this spirituality. My art is who I am, and I am my art. Crazy isn't it? It feels crazy to acknowledge how powerful our art is. Our creation is magic. Our creation is magic. We are connected to our art. I forget the consequences of this; for better for worse. A secret, that really isn't a se...

My Japan - a brief reflection focusing on my artist and the industry.  An enchanting world of its own: full of pleasant delights and endless secrets. A hybrid world of the new and ancient. “You will love it there”, the most common response prior to my adventure. Duh. “The people are so polite and welcoming. They will treat you so well you won’t want to leave” Of course. I discovered some answers; the roots within the themes of Manga and the construction of it. I knew a lot of it already, but it’s clarifying discovering it for yourself.     The Japanese way of life is liner and conservative. And yes, very sexist in an old fashioned manner:   A timeline of statuses to achieve by particular ages. Each separate for women and men of course. They even believe in bad luck years at particular years of age. To become a Mangaka, you have to study art at college and then graduate – hopefully you’ll get picked up by an editor - In your early twenties or fail. That ...

 The art of letting go is key to taking the next level in success, self love and respect. Easier said than done right? duhh?! After raising the bar over the past year, I've noticed a massive change in the dynamic of my relationships; new and existent. At first, I respected and remained close to various connections in my life, but found myself feeling abused. I was abusing myself. I started feeling guilty about receiving the success I had worked so hard to achieve. I gave my power away and felt afraid to own my success. And people grow comfortable around company like that - believe me. They can be anyone you know ; friends, lovers, work colleagues and even those you hold in the highest esteem. Rising up isn't always popular when you've appeared less to certain people. Still, at the end of the day. We only ever have our selves to blame for how we react. Being assertive was something I had learned, but let go of time and time again; for the feeling of guilt. I've al...

 Greetings, and welcome to my blog "Will to Create" . I create expression through the art of illustrating and writing comic books. I also express myself through music performance.  I am Angie Spice. I feel crazy good. Thank you for joining me. I've dreamed of creating this blog for years on end; a read for any artist or creative soul. I'll be covering the topics of artistic well being, discovering and amplifying your unique creative talents, my  journey as an artist and of course our will to create. It exists and it makes us human.