Will To Create

Creating Courier this time round.. the feeling continues to escalate. It's the comforting and empowering feeling that you are on the right track. It is easy to loose faith in what you are doing; when none of it makes sense to anyone else. I seem to have a few treasure fans, who really remind me of the value of what I do. I don't think I could go one without this connection. I want to share this wonder. I want to share what's been shared with me, inside of me. I'm making the most of what I do. I'd like to think that. It's hard to get the balance right. Should I be harder and push myself again pulling all nighters? But I can't abuse creativity. I can't let myself get sick. I'm going with the flow. I'm creating better things. It feels that way. I trust feeling more and more. I still work a few days a week in a cafe to get by. It's my aim this year to generate more income from my comics. It's a lot of work when you are self published, and...

Last night I had a dream.. Geraldine was walking through the wilderness; she turned around and smiled at me. She seemed happy. I feel so frustrated. How much I want to deliver this new comic-no how much I NEED to. Despite certain obstacles, the force of creativity is forcing me and crushing walls that have blocked me. I can't really explain it any clearer than this. It's like I've prayed and the universe has blessed me with the help of friends and opportunities to over come the hardships I am currently going through. My artist just won't and can't lay there dormant, even through the stages of uncertainty in my life. I am blessed by my connection and awareness of this spirituality. My art is who I am, and I am my art. Crazy isn't it? It feels crazy to acknowledge how powerful our art is. Our creation is magic. Our creation is magic. We are connected to our art. I forget the consequences of this; for better for worse. A secret, that really isn't a se...